Tuesday, July 23, 2013

I don't even have the words.

I am so disappointed with myself. I feel like shit physically and mentally, and I've gained back every bit of what I'd lost, plus 5 pounds. (that's going from my WW official weight) I've got maybe three pairs of pants and two shirts that fit. Both of those shirts are ratty because I'd been wearing them to the gym when I'd lost weight and they were too big.

And the worst part is, I can't seem to get myself convinced to get back on track. I keep eating shitty, I keep not going to the gym on a regular basis. I'm sleeping all the fucking time.

I hate this. All of it. But apparently I don't hate it enough to fix it.

I don't like this person I've let myself slip back into being.